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Looking back to the very first day of 2008 till today, the last day of 2008, i asked myslef what have i achieved, what have i not achieved, what have i done, what have i not done, whether i had a meaningful 2008, or had i just let another year go by without feeling a sense of achievement.
This year had really been a year with lots of things going on.
January:
Start of school in Meridian Junior Colledge, wearing mj's uniform for the last year. So many tests which many of us dreaded. Resolution was to study hard and to pass all my tests. But i think i didn't manage to fulfill this. Instead, i failed terribly. Worse than that in 2007.
February:
Tuturials, so many so many. Yet i was slacking away, STILL. All i/we had in mind was the long holidays-Chinese New Year. Noone really had the studying mood YET, though the teachers were always REMINDING us of the upcoming March block test. tsk tsk. Time passes the fastest when we are having fun, dont it? So yea, there goes February, although this Feb had been a longer one.
March:
Yea, there was indeed a march holiday. But it wasn't called holiday this year, it was called: STUDY BREAK. Yes. Had to mug for the March block test. I believe i did study. But, results showed no sign that i studied. Crap. Saddening isn't it? 29 March was the band BBQ, i remembered cause it was my birthday. Longbaos gave me a cake.
April:
I don't really know what's happening. All i know was that i slept late-using computer, woke up early-to go for lectures. Maybe i was half asleep during lectures and tutorials, or perhaps chatting away with iris and christine (i miss those days!)
May:
Rush rush and rush. All the teachers were trying to zooooooom pass everything. They said time was running out. Lectures, everything, was conducted in such fast pace. We had to try to keep up. I knew i was lagging already. yea yea, and then they start reminding us of Mid Year Examinations. Teachers are good reminders hur hur!
June:
Hey, last june i was having so much fun, going east coast park like free (it's free actually) and sentosa. Had to much fun! Overnight study at the airport. Yea, all those was last year. This year, went to school to study. Almost everyday? I don't remember very clearly. Oh! I went to pre-u seminar. But, i did study this time. Soon was the start of Mid Years. Had crappy papers. Results were out. I see many Us. Failed attempt again.
July:
I still had not settled down. Band was going for NBC. We went to support, when there was chem test the next day. Why did i even go in the first place. We were like stucked in between. We dont know the seniors, not so close to the juniors. We ended up all by ourselves, separated by some transparent thing. I thought we were invisible. haha. Wasn't a really good month yea.
August:
9 August come fast. Please. Yearning for that public holiday, although it's just a day. That will do. As i had said, the holidays weren't really holidays. I was studying for some test if i didn't remember wrongly. Or was i out? Nope, last year i was out. Did we start counting down to prelims? I guess so. Syllabus was almost complete.
September:
End of syllabus! Right? One week of study break. I still had alot of work undone. Untouched tyses, undone tutorials. But still, studying continues. I was thinking when my braces would be removed. haha.
October:
PRELIMS! I was happy it was over. Of course not with the results. It scared me. But i don't know how much impact it had on me. It was hard to study once again. Looking at the thick pile of notes lying everywhere. STRESSSSSS! By October, i had already master the art of sleeping anywhere. I slept when i was sitting on the chair, or just lying on the table-like people do during exams. I don't need a bed to sleep. I could even sleep while typing a sms, or when i'm chatting on MSN. Man, i really don't know how did i do that! And so many people said they did Maths to keep them awake. But it was different for me. I slept while solving math questions. zzz. Was counting down to A Levels. It was scary, yet not scary. I was looking forward to As, yet i was not prepare to face it. Thoughts were running wild. I was scared. Did i cry? Haha. General Paper was four days away, and i went for a wedding dinner. Everyone was busy mugging. Was i? I thought i was.
November:
3 2 1. 4 November: The start of nightmare/end of tortures! Day by day went by, i don't know how to describe the way they went by. It was fast yet slow. Papers after papers. After every paper, i would happily strike them out. I was disappoint with myself. Utterly. I hated myself for being so careless. I really hated myself then. I still remember so clearly (of course, it were just a month away). That chem paper. That very question. If only time clicked a little faster then. I regretted. I so wanted to CRY. I was filled with emotions. Nevertheless, i managed to survive through the A Levels. It's over. Let bygones by bygones. I shall face the consequences when the time is right. However, i did not feel as good as i thought it would be. It just felt as though another exam was over. I wasn't really elated. I couldn't feel the joy, the reality that As was indeed over, that i wasn't dreaming. Maybe i haven't really gotten over all my grave mistakes; All the scary thoughts. Anyhow. it's time to PARTY! hmmm. What did i do? Actually i don't really remember. I went shopping, i ate, i splurged - because of Japan. I was looking forward to band practices. Perhaps counting down to JAPAN!
December:
Out of all the months in 2008, i felt that December was the best month, especially those 9 days in Japan. It was the first time doing so many things. The alumnis, if i am counted as one, went up on SIA by ourselves :) I sat beside Val and next to her was Choon Rui. Back of us were Bryan, Zhenghong and Zhengyi. Choy was just beside us. While siying and christine was at the other window sit. I was quite high. But everyone wanted to sleep. I couldn't sleep la. The chair was so out-of-shaped. Arrived at nagoya, finally! The first breathe of JAPAN'S air. Checked in into ryokan. Got this super ulu room with mumchoy as my roommate. Haha. Then we went to Meiden, for the very first time. Took the train and walked 1km and finally arrived at Meiden! Had a warm welcome by them! It was really great. The days in nagoya passed really fast. We played, had great fun, it was really a fun time with them! The conbined concert was quite ok :) It was really saddening that we have to bid farewell to them! They sang COSMOS, which made so many of us cried. Hmm, i didn't cry. Weird huh. I cried at the slightest serial drama but not when i see people crying live! haha. We couldnt bear to leave them, but, the reality was that we had to. I was glad mass bathing was finally over too! HAHA. wth, i don't believe i actually mass bathed! And on the last night in nagoya some really scary stuffs happened too! LOL Luckily mumchoy and i had zy to escort us from room to room! LOL That night, knocking on the door was the scariest thing! haha. Bullet train the next day! woooo! Then we are finally in TOKYO! Disneyland! GREATEST, nope, one of the greatest day in japan! Toured the next day, before the one last day in japan. Free and easy! We went Disneysea! Yea, all on our own. Had ALOT of fun too!! And soon enough, it was time to go back to Singapore. Sat with christine and charmaine in the plane. SINGAPORE!
Everyone was still in the japan mood. Home of facebook was full of tags of photos in Japan! LOL As though japan was the in thing. haha. friends :) have been going out lately, catching up with my dear friends till my father complained. 29 dec-had my wisdom tooth removed. It has not recovered yet :( So yea, that's why i am counting down at home this year. Bleah. I'm missing out on all the fun! Nevermind, let's coutdown ONLINE together yea! What an end to 2008! Let 2008 be the past and move on to 2009! May 2009 be filled with happiness!! And my new year resolution shall be up soon!
Actually, to say the truth, although 2008 had been a sucky year, it was really a year that gave me great experience, experiences for the First time. I had love 2008. GOODBYE 2008!

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